Actual Sobriety is very helpful to a drunk's stability...

 I did not manage to remain sober back in 2015, sadly. So, another 5 years passed until I did. That date is August 30, 2020 - early pandemic.

Not only did I manage alcohol, but, also cigarettes! Woop woop...pretty cool, huh? Well, after 50 years of smoking on and off, seemed like a good idea - needless to say, I tried many times before either was accomplished. I thank AA meetings in the beginning and then, Recovery Dharma online for several years which was much more helpful to me. I didn't have to cringe and battle my feelings about Christianity anymore - major bonus!!!

So, currently, I'm a bit adrift on sobriety support. I'm not managing regular or even infrequent attendance at KTC, nor the one in Athens. Long story but, suffice to say, my ADHD plays a major role. In fact, my ADHD has played a major role in my life for years and years, despite no diagnosis. I even explored autism spectrum or asperger's syndrome. Although, my evaluation did not come up positive, I'm not convinced she got it right. I think women continue to be misunderstood and under researched in this area, as in so many others. But, oh well, no biggie, I know me and my history and remain fairly confident I am on the spectrum. Although gifted with good intelligence, I see many points in my past when my learning disabilities (autism spectrum and adhd) played a major role.

OK, that previous paragraph is quite the stream-o-consciousness, eh? Back to the introduction of the paragraph, I'm feeling a need for more support these days but, still looking to fulfill that need. That is, when I remember, which is rarely right now. I've been off stimulants now for over a month. My new doc just refilled them for me. I am hoping to soon see an amazing improvement in being able to do the things I want to do. fingers crossed...

I'm having a hell of a time doing a class that i love online in tapestry weaving. I'm having so much trouble staying with it and staying on the learning path, it's really disturbing for me!

In fact, I'm hopeful that getting out here regularly, instead of every couple of years may aid me in that pursuit. 

Self-awareness, an aspect of life most intelligent individuals take for granted, alludes me entirely. And, if I could commit to coming here and writing, my hope is to make it a part of my life.

I continue to pursue information on my ADHD. I'm currently reading Scattered by Gabor Mate - great Canadian doc, who also has it and has very helpful things to say about it.